Mood: Calm
Music: Lets Get Lost - Beck And Bat For Lashes
Date: Tuesday, July 6th, 2010
Disclaimer: This story and associated image are safe for work.
I haven't posted a short story in awhile, so I felt it was time to share another. I penned this story on Friday, July 2nd, 2010, shortly after waking up that morning. Enjoy it.
Love,
Ally.
Photo Credit: Legs in the River at Castleton; Saturday, June 26th, 2010
About Persephone
- Allison Charmaine
- Kingston, Jamaica
- If you want to know more about me, or to gain access to my private blog, e-mail me at: allisoncharmaine@gmail.com
Showing posts with label Grateful. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Grateful. Show all posts
11:17 AM
2:01 AM
Mood: Self-Reflection
Music: In a Sentimental Mood - John Coltrane
Date: Thursday, July 1st, 2010
There comes a point in life when you need to evaluate your path, and decide if it's in your best interest to continue on the path, or step off it and create a new path. I personally believe that without self-reflection, you are simply existing and not living.
Dear Readers, let me apologise for not writing for the past 2 months. I offer an apology, and an explanation I hope you will understand: I simply could not write. I was (and to some extent still am) going through so much change, that I couldn't process, much less write out my thoughts in the manner we've both gotten accustomed to.
I could not be my open self with you, weaving words and phrases into that seamless conversational tone with which I write. I could not be myself, and as much as it hurt me not being able to write, it hurt me more to think about filling the space with fluff....so I chose the path of silence.
9:56 AM
Mood: Content and Relieved
Music: I Never Told You - Colbie Caillat
Date: Thursday, April 15th, 2010
Letters to Past Lovers, the Series
Letter to my soul mate, The Final Letter
Thursday, April 15th, 2010
Dear (name deleted),
There is a thin line between love and stalking, and sometimes I wonder if either if us has crossed it. You are the only person I have ever loved, that when I think about - I know you are thinking about me. You are the only person I have loved, that when I think about, I know you will contact me.
Whenever I tell people about the connection you and I have, they look at me oddly, perhaps shake their head and give me a glazed over look that suggests they're thinking "okay dear, if you say so."
9:14 AM
Mood: Happy
Music: 1812 Overture - Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky
Date: Tuesday, March 23rd, 2010
DISCLAIMER: I'd like to point out that the comments are now working thanks to the magic of my friend Morphine who is a talented writer and photographer. I demand you visit her and leave a message on her facebook fan page reminding her how much I love her :)
The last entry was emotionally exhausting for me to write, and I've yet to decide if I'm 100% okay with opening up as much as I have on this blog. Funny, because when I started this blog a year ago, I wanted to keep it light-hearted and not mention parts of my past. How quickly that has changed. Perhaps that change is for the best. Today I'm going to go back to my light-hearted roots...here's a list of 20 truths according to me.
1:32 AM
Mood: Content and Grateful
Music: Knots - Carol Mandala
Date: Monday, 1st March, 2010
I had planned on writing an entry some time this week on reflections coming out of this weekend, and the things I mused about after my Uncle's funeral. However, my friend just told me she wants to know what it feels like to be in love, and as we discussed love I remembered this piece I was challenged to write but swept to the wayside after my uncle died.
My friend Stuart posted a link to an article about Mr. Right on his facebook, and it turned into a healthy debate about expectations and love. One of the respondents challenged he and I to write something on finding love and the right partner, and this is my half of that challenge. Normally I leave out names of persons but this time I have left his name because he deserves credit for me writing this piece - not only because he posted the initial article, or hosted the challenge on his facebook but because I wrote this piece in an hour after a discussion with him.
So now that you have your prologue, here is the draft of what I wrote.
Enjoy. If you have any feedback, you'll have to e-mail me or write on my facebook/twitter because the comments portion of my layout coding doesn't work, and I've been too lazy to find it and fix it.
Love,
Ally.
Photo Credit: Don't Drink the Kool-aid; Saturday, February, 13th, 2010
12:34 PM
Mood: Clarity
Music: Stand Up - Hindi Zahra
Date: Thursday, February, 18th, 2010
My friend asked me on Monday night what I'm giving up for lent, and as we discussed the topic, I let him know that I don't believe in self-torture to prove a point about my commitment to God or how good of a Christian I am.
I really don't, because while I believe in Monotheism - I think it is safe to say my beliefs are more in line with Panentheism. I don't care for labels, I think often times they end up being more of a burden than an explanation.
11:19 AM
Mood: Pensive
Music: Soldier of Love - Sade
Date: Thursday, 11 February 2010
I find that my best moments of inspired thought come in the most inconvenient places: in the shower, while cooking, or while falling asleep. These three places have the same thing in common – it’s hard for me to pull out pen/paper/phone or laptop to record my thoughts. My hand is either wet, covered in food or refuses to move because I’m groggy.
On Wednesday afternoon while cooking dinner, it occurred to me one of the lessons I eventually learned while cooking, applies to life: you can’t fry something properly if the pot is crowded. There are lessons you learn more than trial than error when it comes to both cooking and life. Then there are other lessons you need to learn through error and not trial.
11:19 AM
Mood: Content
Music: All I Need - Radiohead
Date/Time: Monday, 18th January, 2010/11:58AM
EDIT: Why didn't someone point out to me that my "lysdexia" (dyslexia) had kicked in and I had "galley" instead of "gallery" when referring to the waving gallery?
CORRECTION has been made.
I find that the best moments in life are completely unplanned and unrehearsed. This is a profound statement coming from someone who is a notorious planner that lives in her head. I used to plan my entire day, from waking to going to bed - but when you work a 16 hour day, this is essential to maintaining your sanity. To-do lists and organisers were my friend, Google calender and a PDA - were like manna from heaven.
3:25 AM
Music: Love Hurts - Incubus
Mood: Content
Date/Time: Tuesday, 8th December, 2009/3:45AM
The last time I wrote in this blog was October 21st, when I had to share a profound statement that came to me as I returned from watching a friend participating in an event at Dover in St. Ann.
And now, I find myself writing again, after getting home at something after 1AM after spending quality time with the two persons that were there when I made that profound statement. In reality, it was 5 of us in total - and it made me realise that the best moments in life - the moments I will always remember are never in a crowded room - but in a room filled with love.
1:13 PM
Mood: Content and Grateful
Music: Magnet and Steel by Third World
Date/Time: Sunday, September 6th, 2009/1:50PM
I find the easiest way to live is to heed the advice of those who matter, ignore the words of those who don't matter, regularly indulge in at least 3 guilty pleasures, buy pretty underwear, drink alcohol in moderation, and choose wisely who you allow to see you cry.
I've had a great weekend, and on this mellow Sunday morning I find myself reflecting on a few things. I find myself wondering why do we make certain decisions, when we know a situation will only end poorly?
Do we set ourselves up for a bad ending because we know in the back of our mind's it's a poor decision? Or is the foreboding simply our subconscious trying to warn us?
9:51 AM
Mood: Content
Music: Oil and Water - Incubus
Date/Time: Monday 24th August, 2009/9:51AM
"But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long."
- Gravity by Sara Bareilles
Yesterday morning my friend's mother asked me how my birthday was so far.
We had just ordered our meal, and were settling down at a table in the middle of the rustic building. I sat next to her, with a drink in my left hand and my right hand on her left leg and smiled.
I told her the night before wasn't so good, but the morning started off at 4:44AM.
9:17 AM
Mood: Content
Music: Stranger in Moscow - Michael Jackson
Date/Time: Tuesday, 18th August, 2009/9:17AM
I wrote this last night at 11PM - I'm sharing it with you this morning.
Enjoy.
Venus in the Night Sky
As I walked from my apartment to the garbage skip, a million things ran through my mind.
I thought about the papers I need to sign tomorrow: sign here, sign here, initial here, sign here and here.
I thought about the fact that Client M requested I find someone to varnish his grandmother's coffee table, a table his wife hates, but he refuses to part with - so their compromise was to have it buffered and varnished.
I thought about the movie I had just watched with A, feeling the dinner we ate in A's car begin to digest and start the process of being tomorrow's old news.
9:56 AM
Mood: Incredibly Content
Music: Chapter 3.3 - The Creative Process (Receive) - Rhonda Byrne
Date/Time: Monday, 17th August, 2009/10:25AM
I find that the older I get, the less inclined I feel to apologize for the person I am, the person I am becoming.
I think while my core personality is pretty static - the rest of me is dynamic. My likes and dislikes are changing, so are the things I determine to be "absolutes". The older I get, the less things fall under the category of "I'd never do that...".
The older I get, the less I care about apologizing for. I'm me, and if someone cannot accept this, why am I going to get upset? And why am I going to apologize?
4:30 AM
Mood: Incredibly Content
Music: Daydreamer - Adele
Time/Date: Monday, August 3rd, 2009/4:30AM
A couple of "not so happy" things have happened in the past week or so, the funny thing is I know I should be bitching, moaning, crying and miserable - but I'm not.
I've been a little pensive, yes - but still happy and holding true to my positive attitude.
The past couple of weeks have been a blur for me, it's strange and I can't begin to describe it: it's almost like time is whatever I make it. Neither fast nor slow, but time is relative to emotions, feelings, memories, wants and desires and experiences.
Many weeks I feel like I've been cramming a month's worth of activity, emotion and memories - but I will look back on a month and think: "wasn't that just last week?"
2:41 AM
Mood: Happy
Music: Caribbean Blue by Enya
Time/Date: Thursday, July 23rd, 2009/2:41AM
I am not perfect, I admit this freely. Ask the right person(s) and they will tell you some instant of me being a bitch to them - it's probably true - but ask me and I'll tell you why. With this caveat in mind, I ask you the following question:
Have you ever met someone with a nasty personality that is rude to most people, disregards basic social behaviour, is arrogant, a show off, a bully, and treats those who can do nothing for him in life poorly?
6:59 AM
Mood: Musing but happy
Music: Another Cloud by Della Manley
Date/Time: Friday, 10th July, 2009/6:59AM
"I cried too many tears, through the years I could have smiled
Spent too many moments wishing, when everything was fine
Now I'm forgetting time spent regretting, now the water tastes like wine
I think I feel another cloud passing by
Yes, I think I feel another cloud passing by
Every day I'm looking for that silver lining
If it's...
Gray skies and butterflies, it's another great day just to open my eyes
Gray skies and butterflies, it's another great day to open my eyes"
- Another Cloud by Della Manley
Spent too many moments wishing, when everything was fine
Now I'm forgetting time spent regretting, now the water tastes like wine
I think I feel another cloud passing by
Yes, I think I feel another cloud passing by
Every day I'm looking for that silver lining
If it's...
Gray skies and butterflies, it's another great day just to open my eyes
Gray skies and butterflies, it's another great day to open my eyes"
- Another Cloud by Della Manley
1:14 AM
Mood: Mellow and grateful
Music: C'era Una Volta Il West (Once Upon A Time In The West) - Ennio Morricone
Date/Time: Sunday, 7th June, 2009/1:14AM
Something near and dear to my heart is the power of positive thinking. I believe strongly in maintaining a positive attitude, visualizing my goals/dreams, making gratitude lists and blocking out negative chatter/events that are external and beyond my control.
I've been working in the Public Relations industry here in Jamaica since 2005, and a part of my job has always entailed media monitoring and keeping up with current affairs - especially those relating to the particular company I was working at the time.
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