12:34 PM

Venn Diagram of Life (Non, Je Ne Regrette Rien)

Mood: Clarity
Music: Stand Up - Hindi Zahra
Date: Thursday, February, 18th, 2010

My friend asked me on Monday night what I'm giving up for lent, and as we discussed the topic, I let him know that I don't believe in self-torture to prove a point about my commitment to God or how good of a Christian I am.

I really don't, because while I believe in Monotheism - I think it is safe to say my beliefs are more in line with Panentheism. I don't care for labels, I think often times they end up being more of a burden than an explanation.

11:19 AM

Frying in a Crowded Pot

Mood: Pensive
Music: Soldier of Love - Sade
Date: Thursday, 11 February 2010

I find that my best moments of inspired thought come in the most inconvenient places: in the shower, while cooking, or while falling asleep. These three places have the same thing in common – it’s hard for me to pull out pen/paper/phone or laptop to record my thoughts. My hand is either wet, covered in food or refuses to move because I’m groggy.

On Wednesday afternoon while cooking dinner, it occurred to me one of the lessons I eventually learned while cooking, applies to life: you can’t fry something properly if the pot is crowded. There are lessons you learn more than trial than error when it comes to both cooking and life. Then there are other lessons you need to learn through error and not trial.

11:30 AM

Write Myself Out of Limbo

Mood: Pensive
Music: Breakeven - The Script
Date: Wednesday, 3rd February, 2010

Letters to Past Lovers, the Series
Letter to my beloved muse
Monday, 1st February, 2010

Dear (name deleted),
I've been pensive for the past few weeks, and I've spent this time analysing why I am unhappy with our current situation. We are nothing, this is fact. Limbo is a more comfortable state than the present situation I have found myself in with you. And to steal a line from one of my favourite songs by Sara Bareilles: "...you're neither friend nor foe but I can't seem to let you go..."