4:44AM

Mood: Content
Music: Oil and Water - Incubus
Date/Time: Monday 24th August, 2009/9:51AM

"But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long." 
- Gravity by Sara Bareilles

Yesterday morning my friend's mother asked me how my birthday was so far.
We had just ordered our meal, and were settling down at a table in the middle of the rustic building. I sat next to her, with a drink in my left hand and my right hand on her left leg and smiled.
I told her the night before wasn't so good, but the morning started off at 4:44AM.

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Venus in the Night Sky

Mood: Content
Music: Stranger in Moscow - Michael Jackson
Date/Time: Tuesday, 18th August, 2009/9:17AM

I wrote this last night at 11PM - I'm sharing it with you this morning.
Enjoy.

Venus in the Night Sky
As I walked from my apartment to the garbage skip, a million things ran through my mind.
I thought about the papers I need to sign tomorrow: sign here, sign here, initial here, sign here and here.
I thought about the fact that Client M requested I find someone to varnish his grandmother's coffee table, a table his wife hates, but he refuses to part with - so their compromise was to have it buffered and varnished.
I thought about the movie I had just watched with A, feeling the dinner we ate in A's car begin to digest and start the process of being tomorrow's old news.

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No Apology Required

Mood: Incredibly Content
Music: Chapter 3.3 - The Creative Process (Receive) - Rhonda Byrne
Date/Time: Monday, 17th August, 2009/10:25AM

I find that the older I get, the less inclined I feel to apologize for the person I am, the person I am becoming.

I think while my core personality is pretty static - the rest of me is dynamic. My likes and dislikes are changing, so are the things I determine to be "absolutes". The older I get, the less things fall under the category of "I'd never do that...".
The older I get, the less I care about apologizing for. I'm me, and if someone cannot accept this, why am I going to get upset? And why am I going to apologize?

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The Journey

Mood: Happy but Pensive
Music: It's Been Awhile - Staind Date/Time: Tuesday, 4th August, 2009/9:15AM

Part of what makes life so fragile is that we can't tell what's coming next.
If there is such a thing as predetermined destiny - we don't know. Every day is new - filled with hope and expectations.
If I was meant to walk into that store, to meet that person - I wouldn't know and it all seems random and unplanned to me.

But I have to ask, is there something more to all this? Living, loving and being.
What is the end result? What is the purpose? And what is the reward?

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An Attitude of Gratitude

Mood: Incredibly Content
Music: Daydreamer - Adele
Time/Date: Monday, August 3rd, 2009/4:30AM

A couple of "not so happy" things have happened in the past week or so, the funny thing is I know I should be bitching, moaning, crying and miserable - but I'm not.
I've been a little pensive, yes - but still happy and holding true to my positive attitude.

The past couple of weeks have been a blur for me, it's strange and I can't begin to describe it: it's almost like time is whatever I make it. Neither fast nor slow, but time is relative to emotions, feelings, memories, wants and desires and experiences.
Many weeks I feel like I've been cramming a month's worth of activity, emotion and memories - but I will look back on a month and think: "wasn't that just last week?"

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